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5.12.2008

...to my birth mothers....

every year at this time i think of the 5 women in my life that are a bit melancholy...the 5 women that gave me the gift of a child....whether thru her decision or the decision of the state...she had other choices she could have made. I imagine that Mother's Day is a difficult day for her---wondering if she made the right choice, how her baby is, who her baby is, where....

no matter what she has done with her life since....that was a defining moment in her life. with the exception of one, she was alone in the situation---no man had stayed around to help or be involved....in a couple of cases, her life was in such disarray that she couldnt see beyond tomorrow....and in a couple of cases, the state decided she couldnt maintain a stable life for her child. In all cases, I always hope she knows of my appreciation for her and the important part she plays in my life.

I love her and am grateful to her and pray for her happiness and peace.

7 comments:

Jackie said...

What an incredible perspective to have. It is amazing that in times where one person is having such sorrow in struggling to make a life-changing decision, the person who is on the receiving end of that decision is experiencing so much joy. Our extended family would not be the same without those 5 kids of yours. Happy Mother's Day

Cathy said...

man that made me cry. so touching!!

Lyric said...

this is deep! not what you said you would post at all...but very thoughtful nonetheless.

you left out the part about me being your favorite daughter?

Meredith said...

that was encrypted

Eden said...

That was lovely ... very empathic and, just lovely.

Eden said...

Oh, and I really like the Leonardo DaVinci quote. I wonder if he got it from the great Yoda (you know ... StarWars Yoda) "Do or do not. There is no try."

;o)

marcia said...

You have such a big heart .....I think one's smile is reflective of the size of the heart