this is me now


this little piggy.....

my little piggies love house shoes....soft, comfortable house shoes....i wear them everyday...all day----i wear them on airplanes and on long road trips....i wear them with jammies, dresses and jeans....if you look close enough, I wear them whilst (isnt that a pretty word) driving in the car...i slather on lotion on my tootsies and slip them into the bliss that is house shoes.
I love my beige house booties----(and ya gotta love purple plaid Lucy pajamas)...see how they blend in with my carpet! striped purple knit shoe/socks......divine! and yes...i know i'm missing some of the balls...

I love pink scuffs----well, not love---like a lot---i like house SHOES---not slippers so much...but you gotta have a pair of fluffy pink scuffs.

i love black fluffy house shoes---the newest addition to the family---thanks Lyric!

*sigh*...i love the sound of the shuffle, i love the faux fur inside, i love the comfo....wait....scroll back put their feet in my houseshoes? who the HECK has hijacked all 4 pair of my comfy shoes----Stand up! confess now...BECAUSE--------------


half a century

....who am i kidding? i've been half a century for a coupla years---you do the math.
I was born in Freeport, Illinois during a massive snowstorm--big surprise huh! I was the 2nd daughter, 4th child of Ace & MaryLou Ensign. (my younger brother Matt followed me by 18 months and sister Pyper 10 years after that).
I grew up in a very "Ozzie & Harriet" home---active LDS, mom stayed at home til I was in late junior high....didnt do a lot of sports...but took the requisite ballet, tap & piano lessons. We vacationed every year to see my grandparents in Salt Lake---Dad usually threw in a side-trip to a major sight (grand canyon, disneyland, yellowstone, etc) along the way.
During high school I focused on music and theater...and boys.
things we learned about me by then:
i am SO not competitive----my sister Eden was a better piano player---so i stopped working at that and focused on singing---my piano playing only got better when Eden refused to play for me to sing---so I had to do that!
i was quite obese as a teen---ultimately had surgery----best thing i've ever done---having these body issues has defined me to me my entire life....they continue to rule my thoughts.
SO SO not competitive---but pretty arrogant----taking Calculus as a senior in high school---already accepted to BYU and tested out of math, english and history for my freshman year----I was getting a C in my class---so I dropped it---without my parent's permission---i told them after the fact. " O that cunning plan of the evil one! O the vainness, and the frailties, and the foolishness of men! when they are learned they think they are wise, and they hearken not unto the counsel of God, for they set it aside, supposing they know of themselves, wherefore, their wisdomn is foolishness and it profiteth them not..." (2 Nephi 9:28)....i SO thought i knew everything.

I spent my twenties getting married---met NOT the man of my dreams and married him ( my dreams were Sylvester Stallone and Tom Jones---not marriage material---certainly not Seymours (that reference requires a post of its own)....and trying to have children---the greatest agony of my life.... and i learned i didnt know everything

by thirty i was expecting Jasmine---our third daughter....thought we were set and done (yes---the control and arrogance continues even to today!)
My thirties were spent acquiring children....6 kids in 10 years with 5-6 foster kids tossed in just to keep it interesting. I graduated with a degree in American Sign Language...I have always worked part-time---but it never defined me.... and i learned i didnt know everything

my forties----raising kids----rough, rough years---years i've blurred away---dont ask unless you want me to unleash. there were times where it was wonderful---there were times where it was unbearable. ...and i learned i knew nothing

my fifties----
hmmmmm.....i have planned 3 weddings in 2 years----and loved every minute of it.....i have 4 grandsons that are so cute i want to eat their faces off---i have a job that i was born to do---i get to sing and perform and eat in restaurants and sleep in hotels---and come home! I have a house that is done hubband lets me play---even encourages it. my children nurture me and chat with me and surprise me and make me cry (good tears now!) My testimony of Christ in my life has never been stronger---i can see God's hand in my life---and I can see the benefit of "Jesus, Take the Wheel"---altho i still struggle with control. ...but i'm learning that its okay to not know everything.

and i like magazines...reality chocolate....and dogs.
btw--telling my age? i look darn good for 52! and by 62---I WILL KNOW EVERYTHING!
stay tuned...


january blues

first weekend with no family here
no babies...gave away the baby food they left behind
no daughters (no offense, ace....its not the will be when you are older...right now you are ALWAYS here :) love you!)
no holidays to cook for
house is clean---or as clean is its gonna be
i think i'll wallow a little next week
not teaching seminary next week (taught this week---yay---love my seminary class)
next week I'll:

  • watch season 4 of 24
  • take daily naps

  • see my brother marc

  • celebrate a little day---nuff said

  • clean my closet

  • call my girls everyday...early...before my nap

  • cook spaghetti and eat it at 10 p.m.

that will make it the january purples


babies first christmas

a baby story....

Jonas David Nelson was born at 4:36 (or was it 38?) on Monday, December 14, 2009....and i was there.

leah & joe let me be in the delivery room for the big moment! i was amazed/ overwhelmed/ awestruck/just a big wow.

I delivered jasmine by c-section---so it was the first time i'd ever seen an actual birth. Leah was such a trooper---altho truth be told, she had it very easy.....induced around 11---epidural at 1:00....2 1/2 pushes at 4:30---jonas is out. Joe got to cut the cord---leah held him seconds after his birth.....just wow.