this is me now

11.26.2012

dont read this if you want to be all warm and fuzzy

i'm grateful that 2012 is almost over....ever have a year that you just breathe thru?---barely breathing.

Thanksgiving was HORRIBLEAWFULTERRIBLE----dave had surgery on monday (this is not about david---he is fine---the only reason that was brought up was to add to the stress---if you want to know how david is---read his clever blog)---i got sick on thursday---it was just the two of us----so david went to golden corral with brother davis for thanksgiving dinner....no movie tradition did.....no turkey eaten-----
Eden & Bill came up from austin on Friday---did their best to make it a 'holiday'---saw my show (forgotten carols)---that is always fun....
leah and family came up friday night----she was sick---jonas was sick----leah and joe saw the show on saturday matinee---they tried very hard to make it a nice visit..........makes it very hard when they leave---wow i'm really a debbie-downer
had 2 christmas miracles as i was able to sing my song----truly an answer to prayer.
sunday was a major implosion----rough morning anyway---normal sunday---but usually i can pull my way thru it----then i had to direct the opening song of sacrament meeting----Joy to the world----really?-----more stupid dagnabit information about ace---about a minute before church starts---somehow he is in michigan---having been kicked out of places in dallas and new orleans----and us not knowing anything where he was for a week---and now michigan????----nothing but worser and worser-----sam is fine-----but seems to alternate weeks of texting me how much he hates me and then how much he loves me----and molly----well---she has announced it----she is pregnant----ashton's dad took him---so they are in a custody battle that molly probably shouldnt win at this point----so why do people think they are being encouraging and supportive by "liking" the situation of a 22 yr old pregnant again in a custody battle with baby daddy #1 and no baby daddy #2----hmmmmm?
i have tendonitis in my foot---hurts like the dickens----and i have a tremor in my left hand---which is kinda cool to watch---but it hurts my elbow...a lot
after the opening song---i walked down the aisle---tears flowing----spent the rest of church crying, walking around the building, leah came and found me----so we walked around the building----sundays are so hard

oh---and president obama was re-elected....and they cancelled Last Resort----and nikki minaj is an american idol judge----stupid 2012
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i'm grateful that 2012 is almost over.
and if 2013 isnt better----then i'm going to be less peppy---a lot

we'll see how long this post stays up...and of course Lyric reads this but doesnt comment----stupid 2012.

10 comments:

Unknown said...

If I commented now--It might make 2012 more bearable, and then where would we be?

Good Riddance Twenty-twelve. Nothing good happens on even years anyway....think about it...I was born in '87...my children, 09 and 11. There is a reason for this.

Unknown said...

Ben----you are so wise

Sharon said...

I am so sorry about what you are going through. I agree, Sunday's are very hard. It's my favorite day of the week, but it is still hard. I am really looking forward to seeing you soon. I want to give you a nice long hug!

Jackie said...

I'm sorry. :( Just imagine hugging your favorite niece (that'd be me) and then snuggling with said niece's babies. That makes everything better for a little while. xoxo

Ashley said...

Ugh, I'm sorry Meredith. I hope 2013 is a better year. :(

Piter and Heidi said...

Sorry, I liked and didn't know the other stuff... I thought she turned her life:( Sorry, and so sorry about your Thanksgiving...I was really hoping you would have an awesome one...or come to our place as second best... Also so sorry you were so sick but congratulations on an awesome review!!!! I feel so bad about Ace, and Sam, and Molly, and David, and your hard year... Love you lady and when I think of all you have meant to our family over the years, it warms my heart to know you:) You don't know this but the day you wore a robe and slippers to RS turned my attitude of a non-fuzzy ward around... and you were a huge inspiration to Chalea with her sign language, she was so intimidated by your talent, it pushed her to try harder... I can't tell you how many things you never knew you did for us, but I'm positive you did the same for many many others and still do... Have a better tomorrow every day!!!!!

Mother of the Wild Boys said...

I just love you. And 2012 has been really sucky...let's meet it in a dark alley and kick the crap out of it. Too harsh? Nah.

Natalie said...

Yes, goodbye 2012. Hugs. Lots of hugs!!!

Olivia Carter said...

Uncle David has a blog? How have I been missing his words and wit? Love you and sorry about the craptasticness you are enduring right now. Out with the bad and in with the good!

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